Just Friends =[

DADE! Let's talk about Dade....everyone I am so confused, I no longer know if he likes me or if I'm just a Buddy...I mean I really thought that he did like me, as more then just a friend...or maybe I could be reading way to much in to things...But, he did ask me to be this girlfriend a few times, I swear the way he looks at me sometimes...really makes me think that he is in to me. You know when you are just looking though your friends' myspace cause your board....well I was just looking at his and I saw a few comments from his ex girlfriend...calling him "Baby" and saying things like, "I love you". I looked at his staus and it still said "single" I never get jealous so this is pretty freaky to me. My god, how could I let myself get this way over a guy?

...Maybe I don't like him? Maybe I only thought that I did cause I thought he liked me? If that's that case well then...thank GOD. I will be able to get over it as soon as he starts going out with that girl....You know what? I want him to go out with her. I don't want to have feelings for him...I want him to be happy...and I want to forget that I ever felt like his and we can go back to just being friends. And I will just be his buddy and I will be happy with just that!

I am not going to feel this way anymore...I am not going to feel for him...I am not going to want him...I am not going to care for him as anything more then just a friend....For now on he will only be my buddy...and I will just want to be friends...I can do this....I'm not the type of girl who get this way...I will just want to be friends.
Friends
That's it
Nothing more
YUP
No feelings for him WHAT so ever
Well
The end
Heh

Just some thoughts

Now before I get started, I think that I should tell you my point of view of religion, my opinion is that any religion is a cult...no one needs to share my ideas, but that is what I believe. Last night my dog kept my up most of the night crying due to the thunder, so it left me time to think. I hope there was a Jesus, he was a pretty cool dude in my book, he was like the original hippi. He spoke of peace and love, he saved Mary Magdalen from being stoned. He said "Let he without sin cast the first stone" So my queston to you is why are catholics so unlike Jesus. They are so selfish as well all they care about is getting in to the "kingdom" and they will do so by any means necessary. They would kill for it, Abraham was willing to do just that(it was to prove his love to god), he was going to do the evil task that god had ask him to do, when dun da dadaaaaa

"the angel of the Lord called to him from heaven and said, “Abraham, Abraham!” And he said, “Here am I.” He said, “Do not lay your hand on the boy or do anything to him, for now I know that you fear God, seeing you have not withheld your son, your only son, from me.”"

That is one sick joke...what the fuck, man? I mean what if he forgot to tell Abraham not to? If god was real I would say that he was one sick asshole and no wonder Satin hates him.

Let's now talk about about the Catholic church and gays. I am 100% straight, but I think that the gays are the best people ever lol, I think they are fun and the last people to judge anyone. Now, the bible says that god created us all in a vison of himself...does this mean that god is bi?
And even if he isn't, GOD was the one that created US. So if being gay is wrong (which it isn't) then why should one be punished for god's error?


I think that those who live their life in black and white with shallow hearts and minds who have never tasted all the flavors that life has to give should be the first to be damned. Tolerance is one thing, expedience is on a whole other level. And I believe that those with open minds truly have the biggest hearts.

Don't judge
Just love

We are all members of the human race, don't turn your back on your own kind.

Peace nd love

How do you trust someone with a past?

We all have pasts...but as deceitful as his...He has never done anything to me to break my trust but....ugh Let me start from the beginning.

I have this guy friend....lets call him Dade.
Well you see Dade and I have been friends for a long time...and he has told me a lot...Like the fact that he has cheated on every girlfriend he has ever had, and has told girls that he loved them when he didn't. Now we have had a thing for a while...but we are not in a relationship, we have gone out(a few weeks ago) on a "date" once before....(yes we have hung out alot since then)

He has asked me to be his girlfriend a while back like in October...but I turned him down cause I had a friend that had feelings for him...but I have not spoken with her in along time now...since I droped out of school in Nov...I don't talk to any of my old school friends cause I really don't want to.
Now there is nothing holding me back (other then the fact that he hasnt ask me to be his girl since heh)
But what if he does? What if I say yes? What if he cheats and lies? What if I let him in to my closed heart? What if I let him in and he brakes it? But what if he wouldn't? What if I say no? What if I miss the chance to be with him? What if he really would have been faithful?
The thing is I really can't see him being a cheater...at lest not anymore. He is such a great guy...I have spoken with on of his friend...cause he was nice and gave me a ride home and he was saying how he is one guy you can really trust! That he is the type of guy that has your back not matter what? (No, I didn't tell his friends how I feel about Dade)
My god...I really do think I could let him in....but if I do? I'm really kind of scared of what he could do.
I have never been one to judge someone or hold them to what they have done...only for what they do. But what if I do let him in...and he hurts me?